I’m so frustrated. I’ve been looking for an apartment for a year with no luck. After work today I visited an apartment that opened up in my old neighborhood, but I didn’t like it, so back to square one.

It also made me sad to see my old street again. From summer 2021 to summer 2022 I was living in the best apartment that I’ve ever rented. It was in a beautiful place with lots of trees, it had big windows and lots of light, it was affordable, and I actually liked my landlord (how often does that happen?). I was just about to extend the lease for another year, but then the building flooded, and I had to move in with my mom. 

I miss having my own living space. But that’s not the only thing. I need sunlight, I need to look at trees, I need a shorter commute so I actually have time to do things like art and writing and exercise. Right now my commute is so long that I never have time to do ANYTHING except work and sleep, and the house we’re living in is dark and depressing. On top of that the landlord is terrible, everything keeps breaking, AND he keeps raising the rent (which I’m paying). 

And the other things is, doing martial arts is really important for my happiness and mental health, and the school I want to go to is in my old neighborhood, too far a way from where I live now. I just really don’t enjoy many things outside of work right now. I’m lucky that I have a job that I love, but things aren’t going well outside of that.